looking back.....as B puts it......
I sat here tonight after a long day of nothingness...thinking. I have lived a great life in springpatch the past few months. Great friends, weird relationships with different women...and lotsa beer! I went to dinner by myself tonight at the local hibachi place. It was strange. I was the only one there...and let me tell you, they dont get all fancy when its just you! They actually cooked my dinner in the back kitchen so they didnt have to mess up the grill. Funny shit!
I have been in a strange mood the past few days...It's like this black hair takes me back into the place I really love. The dark part of me. The thinker. The escapist. The musician. The person that is hiding inside of me. I feel music different when I am in this mood. I hear it different..It's strange but I have these songs in my head and I want to know what I have to do to make them happen. More money? More equipment? I think so.
Interlude: my ass hurts from sitting on this chair BTW, I think I have been on this PC too damn long!!
Anyway, back to what I was saying....for some weird reason I am called the wife of B. I think its because I take care of my bud. I cook us dinner and get us beer when we need it. I chat with him all day about stuff on the internet and get his advice on my relationships. He is a good friend. My best friend. I dont want to be a burden in wisconsin to him and sunny. They are the best couple around. If I go, it will be nice to know people there and sunny could help me find new friends. The thing is, I have to go for myself, not for them. They know I will do whatever I choose in the next 5 months, they prb know better then I. I just am ready for a change ... a drastic one... I look forward to this...but looking back, I have done ok. I appreciate the fact that B has been able to blog more then I have on our craziness and good times we have had. You can check them out at Shock and Awe
other than that...I think that is about it on this post.
cam
I have been in a strange mood the past few days...It's like this black hair takes me back into the place I really love. The dark part of me. The thinker. The escapist. The musician. The person that is hiding inside of me. I feel music different when I am in this mood. I hear it different..It's strange but I have these songs in my head and I want to know what I have to do to make them happen. More money? More equipment? I think so.
Interlude: my ass hurts from sitting on this chair BTW, I think I have been on this PC too damn long!!
Anyway, back to what I was saying....for some weird reason I am called the wife of B. I think its because I take care of my bud. I cook us dinner and get us beer when we need it. I chat with him all day about stuff on the internet and get his advice on my relationships. He is a good friend. My best friend. I dont want to be a burden in wisconsin to him and sunny. They are the best couple around. If I go, it will be nice to know people there and sunny could help me find new friends. The thing is, I have to go for myself, not for them. They know I will do whatever I choose in the next 5 months, they prb know better then I. I just am ready for a change ... a drastic one... I look forward to this...but looking back, I have done ok. I appreciate the fact that B has been able to blog more then I have on our craziness and good times we have had. You can check them out at Shock and Awe
other than that...I think that is about it on this post.
cam
You're right Cam, it has been a pretty good life here in ol' Springbucket. I think we've both gone through a lot in the time we've been here, and its made us better people. I can definitely tell that's the case with you, just from the things you've told me. You've experienced many different things that have made you learn and grow. It's a great thing. I think there is a lot more to learn on the way.
The hair is fucking awesome. No doubt about it, it was the right time for a change. You need to express yourself through your art and let people know more about you. It's a great release - doing something you love. I'm glad you don't let anything hold you back. I really like the idea of the two of us starting a label to offer up your music (art)through. Got to get it out to people. That is something we can look forward to doing in the future.
While you may not be my wife (contrary to what anyone else says), you are definitely my best friend. It means a lot to me to know you're there for me. Sometimes it's weird being on your own with no family around, and it's great to know I've got a best friend like you. Not many people would put up with my shit. Luckily for me, you're laid back. I'd do anything for ya, definitely. I think good friends take care of each other when they need it, and that's what we do. I can't thank you enough for all your help these last few weeks as I've been a broke ass and kinda depressed about it. Just know I'll do the same for you if you were in this situation. Regardless of where you end up, it's totally your decision. I'll be happy for you either way. Be it Florida, Wisconsin, or Utah, as long as you're happy, I'll be happy for you. If we are in the same place, that will definitely kick ass, and I guarantee you that you would'nt be a burden in the least. Sunny has all the strengths where I have weaknesses, like showing up on time and being around more often, and she wont let me get away with oversleeping or staying in the house too long. She is a lot like you, in a way - wants to do things all the time. You'll see more of me, definitely. Like I said earlier today, it wont be Part 2 of anything else. :)
We've gone through a lot and I've got to say, I'm lucky to have a friend like you. You're a great person, and friends like that are hard to come by. I can't wait to see what the future holds for all of us. I'm going to stop typing because you'll fall asleep if I keep going.
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