stepping back
I try not to think about my past relationships ... but, I do. I think about what would have become if something had changed. I am one of those situations now. I am dating this girl named sarah...and I am not happy. She tells me she misses me and that she cant wait to spend time with me....the problem is...I dont miss her. In fact, I really dont even think of her outside of where we work. I dont want to call her, I dont want to spend money on her....I just dont want to be with her. B and Sunny have met her, in fact, she (sarah) paid for our dinner one night. I have no answer why she did this. I think she was trying to fit in with my friends or that maybe she was just enjoying her time with me and my friends. All I know is that she is not the one for me ... and I hope B and Sunny can give me their advice on this....cuz I could really use it right now!!...LOL
I sit here with my insomnia setting in...unaware of how I will feel tomorrow when I go to the ol DT...I really dont care how I feel when I sit there in that drone environment. It fucking bores me...and at the same time, it pays me well....kinda ironic, but I am just so sick of going to that place. It is somewhere I dont want to be.
I want to record music with B. I want to make a sound that no one has heard. I know he has it in him.....I can feel this! I think he has a gift unrecognized by even him musically. I think he has an ear unlike mine and yet the two will compliment each other well when it would come to producing music.
B is my best friend....and I thankful that I was given the opportunity to meet him ...the thing is, I would do anything for for the guy (hell, maybe even move to Wisconsin to open our studio we keep talking about). I appreciate the fact that he has shown me the way to listen to my heart (like me moving to persue this whole Summer thing!!). The fact that no one has ever done that...the ideals that he transends to me are very nice to hear. He is very positive, and it is always nice to hear his point of view on things...You are my dog B...love ya buddy! I just wanted to end this post and say thanks for coming into my life and showing me a different light.
To anyone else whom reads this, I just want to let you know...I appreciate everything you have done for me...I wish only the best for each and everyone of you. You all have had an impact in my life and I only wish to spend more of our time together.
I want to become something ... that has been hidden inside of me .... now, it is time!
maKo
I sit here with my insomnia setting in...unaware of how I will feel tomorrow when I go to the ol DT...I really dont care how I feel when I sit there in that drone environment. It fucking bores me...and at the same time, it pays me well....kinda ironic, but I am just so sick of going to that place. It is somewhere I dont want to be.
I want to record music with B. I want to make a sound that no one has heard. I know he has it in him.....I can feel this! I think he has a gift unrecognized by even him musically. I think he has an ear unlike mine and yet the two will compliment each other well when it would come to producing music.
B is my best friend....and I thankful that I was given the opportunity to meet him ...the thing is, I would do anything for for the guy (hell, maybe even move to Wisconsin to open our studio we keep talking about). I appreciate the fact that he has shown me the way to listen to my heart (like me moving to persue this whole Summer thing!!). The fact that no one has ever done that...the ideals that he transends to me are very nice to hear. He is very positive, and it is always nice to hear his point of view on things...You are my dog B...love ya buddy! I just wanted to end this post and say thanks for coming into my life and showing me a different light.
To anyone else whom reads this, I just want to let you know...I appreciate everything you have done for me...I wish only the best for each and everyone of you. You all have had an impact in my life and I only wish to spend more of our time together.
I want to become something ... that has been hidden inside of me .... now, it is time!
maKo
It sounds like you answered your own question on the Sarah thing. You know where you stand on things, and you should stick with that. She is a nice girl, but we both know that nice isn't everything you want. There is nothing wrong with just being friends.
I love the idea of doing the music. We definitely need to get together to work on it this week. I think I'll be over the cold by tomorrow night. I really appreciate all the great things you said, Cam. They mean a lot to me. It's not often you find good friends - at least I don't, so it means even more to me to have a friend like you. You're a good man and I can definitely see good things for you in the future. If you end up living where I do, very cool. Even if you don't, just remember to always to what feels right to you, even if it seems a little scary. Sometimes taking a chance is the best thing you can do. Let's finish up that album, Jumungus!
Posted by
Byagi |
11:05 AM
I hear ya dog! I just appreciate your friendship and the time I have had to get to know ya. I am so happy for you and the mrs too! You know who knows where I will end up...I just hope we can work on music together sometime in the future...maybe be big rock stars ... have groupies...oh wait, I can do that...you couldnt!!....LOL! (that is prb for the better though, you being married and all!)
I guess jumungus can film it...ROTFL!
Posted by
Scuba |
4:40 PM
I hear ya dog! I just appreciate your friendship and the time I have had to get to know ya. I am so happy for you and the mrs too! You know who knows where I will end up...I just hope we can work on music together sometime in the future...maybe be big rock stars ... have groupies...oh wait, I can do that...you couldnt!!....LOL! (that is prb for the better though, you being married and all!)
I guess jumungus can film it...ROTFL!
Posted by
Scuba |
4:41 PM