yeah so,
Here it is....12.23 in the morning and its another night of no sleeping. I am so sick of this shit. I go to work day in and day out...and I work at home more then I do at work. I come home and it's like I have nothing better to do. I have been working on the house for the past 3 weeks and I am so sick of this shit. I sleep maybe a couple hours a night and wake up every 12 minutes. I have too much going on to relax. I keep thinking about moving and getting out of this shithole that I live in. I hate this fucking town!
Its like a song I once heard...its a song by Stabbing Westward called Television. Read these lyrics and I think you will see what I mean.
I sit alone contemplating
What is missing inside me
I desperately try to remember
A life that's not meant to be
I meditate
And try to recapture
Some sense of reality
In my life
When I look around
I see numb empty faces
The world is waiting to die
And this apathy
Is so suffocating
The slow decay of my mind
I've searched the world
For someone with answers
To questions that are plaguing me
I scream in vain
To anyone who'll listen
But everbody's watchin' TV
Is anyone alive?
Am I lost in a world
Where nothing matters?
Am I lost in a world
Where no one cares?
Is anyone alive?
Are we lost in a world
Where nothing matters?
Are we lost in a world
Where no one cares?
Is anyone alive?
This is how I feel. So fucking numb. Like no one listens. Like no one cares. It's funny because I think people care but yet, when it boils down to it...who really gives a flying fuck (<--- missouri word). I awake in the morning and listen to people talk about everything from software to sex. I think a lot of people these days are lost. They have no sense of what really matters. I think I have to just let go of things that are somewhat of a reality. I have release myself from the whereabouts. I need my porn. I need my mind. I need my thoughts. It's the beauty of being numb.
This is nothing more than an escape from where I should be ... please ignore everything I have said. I have no righteousness right now...
fluid
Its like a song I once heard...its a song by Stabbing Westward called Television. Read these lyrics and I think you will see what I mean.
I sit alone contemplating
What is missing inside me
I desperately try to remember
A life that's not meant to be
I meditate
And try to recapture
Some sense of reality
In my life
When I look around
I see numb empty faces
The world is waiting to die
And this apathy
Is so suffocating
The slow decay of my mind
I've searched the world
For someone with answers
To questions that are plaguing me
I scream in vain
To anyone who'll listen
But everbody's watchin' TV
Is anyone alive?
Am I lost in a world
Where nothing matters?
Am I lost in a world
Where no one cares?
Is anyone alive?
Are we lost in a world
Where nothing matters?
Are we lost in a world
Where no one cares?
Is anyone alive?
This is how I feel. So fucking numb. Like no one listens. Like no one cares. It's funny because I think people care but yet, when it boils down to it...who really gives a flying fuck (<--- missouri word). I awake in the morning and listen to people talk about everything from software to sex. I think a lot of people these days are lost. They have no sense of what really matters. I think I have to just let go of things that are somewhat of a reality. I have release myself from the whereabouts. I need my porn. I need my mind. I need my thoughts. It's the beauty of being numb.
This is nothing more than an escape from where I should be ... please ignore everything I have said. I have no righteousness right now...
fluid
youre thinking too much. maybe you should consider medication to sleep on. It might help you out. The more time you have to sit up and contemplate things, the worse it can be. You dont need that. I understand how you can feel like being down is all there is, but you really know it's not. remember that and remember the people that really care about you. there are a couple of them out there.
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Byagi |
11:03 AM