The House of Cam

Just in case you didnt know it, Rammstein has a new cd coming out next month. Its titled ROSENROT and will be headed to the states October 28th and its going to ROCK!! They have just released the first single (titled BENZIN) off the album and you can watch the video here!

Watch the BENZIN video now!

You guys know how much I dig this band, so if you havent checked it out or even heard of them ... you should give it a try....

let me know what you think....its a kick ass video!

and I am still doing what I do...this sucks.

I have been really down in the dumps the past week, with the exception of a few nights. I cant pinpoint it, but I think its b/c nothing has been happening to aid in the sell of my house. When I bought the house, the front porch was supposed to be bricked in, the builder signed an agreement to have it done. Well, 5 months later...nothing has been done. I could go ahead and list the house with an agent, but then again...the porch isnt done...its stressful. Everytime I try and reach them they never return my calls and when they do answer, they say "the brick is on its way..."

fuck it...i am stressed.

Needless to say...Its time for me to move on again and leave my past behind.

I decided to get in Scuba and go for a drive .. and put on one of my favorite cds...One of my favorite Audioslave songs is off their first album...here are the lyrics...read them and tell me what you think and why I like them...that is, if anyone still reads my thoughts...This really says my life...


I Am The Highway

Pearls and swine bereft of me
Long and weary my road has been
I was lost in the cities
Alone in the hills
No sorrow or pity for leaving I feel

Chorus
I am not your rolling wheels
I am the highway
I am not your carpet ride
I am the sky

Friends and liars don’t wait for me
I’ll get on all by myself
I put millions of miles
Under my heels
And still too close to you
I feel

Chorus
I am not your rolling wheels
I am the highway
I am not your carpet ride
I am the sky
I am not your blowing wind
I am the lightening
I am not your autumn moon
I am the night
The night


I am not your rolling wheels
I am the highway
I am not your carpet ride
I am the sky
I am not your blowing wind
I am the lightening
I am not your autumn moon
I am the night
The night


Goodnight lovers....

I havent posted in quite some time - primarily this is due to being swamped at work - meaning both the day and night jobs. The house is coming along well as I am preparing it to sell. In case you wondered, it is "for sale by owner"....and if you know anyone who wants a house in the town of Nixa, just let me know...I think once it sells, I will make out ok. I should cover my costs and credit cards I have charged up to add to the value of the house. Lord knows, the only thing on my mind right now is getting the fuck out of Misery Missouri. It's time for a change and its been a long time comin'.

I have been in a strange mood lately. Things around me seem fake...as do the people around me. The people I talk to and the people I interact with seem like they are all just trying to get something out of me. I dont know what it is, but its something or I wouldnt feel it. This doesnt mean my close friends, and you know who you are when I say that. I mean people I meet at work and the the people I work with on a day to day basis. Its always something, and the bad part of it all is, its nothing when you think about it. Oh well.

I went off on my room-mate last night - I was pretty harsh on her. She needs to grow up and realize that nothing in life should be taken for granted. She does this often - course I am only XX amount of years older then her. Hell, we all do it - taking things for granted that is...Some of us are just worse at showing others that we do it. Maybe she will be ok today since she doesnt have to see me for 3 days? I am headed out to my parents house to dog sit for 3 days and such. Do you realize how much it costs to board 4 dogs for 3 days...close to 600 bucks!! FUCK THAT!! At least I can do is go house sit or dog sit rather and maybe even get some peace and quiet for once.

I am just frustrated really...that is about it.